This last Sunday we were talking about trials and it hit me that the hardest thing i am going through right now, most everyone around me doesn't even care. It literally doesn't even phase them. And I was just trying to let it sink in that the one thing that causes me so much pain is something others wouldn't think twice about.
It kinda hurt my feelings (pity party) and then i realized that because I am going through this alone, I am going to have to really rely on my Savior and his atonement. I have learned this semester how the atonement can be used. And sharing our pains with the Savior is a giant part of that. The Atonement is not just used for sin. Jesus suffered the pains of the world, and he felt every hurt that anyone has ever felt. Which means, Jesus felt the feelings I am feeling right now. And it doesn't matter if I think if no one else understands what I am going through because He does. And that can give me comfort.
I understand. Trust me, I understand........
ReplyDelete<3 i'm sorry if it sounded like i was trying to undermine your emotions. I love you! and I know you love Cody so much too! Thank you for being his mom!
ReplyDeleteI know what you mean. Even though you have people who support you, it's different when they are not THERE with you to show you the support. I hated being in Pullman those 12 weeks before i delivered...... I hated being in church listening to everyone preaching of love, support, service and everything and then not receiving any. Having no one sit next to me in RS, everyone avoiding....it was HEART WRENCHING.
ReplyDeleteSo although saying that i love, support you and i understand, i know that it doesn't help in the here and now. So just push through and stay strong because i know you can do it sweetie <3