Tuesday, September 11, 2012
Is it silly that everything I do, I do for Cody? I pick out my daily outfits with him on my mind, wondering if he would think it's cute. I do my make up and hair remembering how much he loved to play with my hair and how I would actually let him see me without makeup. He would always make me feel beautiful. I always put on my perfume and remember how I sprayed cody's coat with my perfume back when I was fifteen and he "was upset" but secretly went home and couldn't stop smelling it =) I only drink water for him. And sometimes I will wear orange just for him! even though I don't like it, it reminds me of him. I cook food with Cody on my mind and wonder if this would be something he would find yummy. I go to work and find joy in looking at all the married women's wedding rings. Sometimes I watch movies that we would watch together, or ones we wanted to watch together, or ones that remind me of him. I run for cody. I pray for cody. I smile because I think of Cody. I work for Cody. I play the piano and guitar for Cody. I sing for Cody. I love Cody because I am who I am because of him.