"I love you more than I know how to feel"

Thursday, November 29, 2012


I would like to take the time to say just how sad it makes me to see people not appreciate what they have when it comes to love. I have too often seen couples who act so comfortable with their relationships. 
where is the love?
I would give anything just to see Cody and I see so many others who are so blessed with the opportunity to be in love and with that special someone. Love truly is a blessing from God. Sometimes, when I observe couples, i just want to tell them how lucky they are. I want to tell them to appreciate their spouse/love. I want to tell them, "go give your wife a kiss. because you can. and because you love her" 
Some of us don't have the chance to do that.  Some have to love from a distance. Others have love right in their hands and act as if they don't even realize the preciousness of what they have. I have seen so much negative examples and have learned to appreciate the good. 
Go hug your love. Kiss them. Tell them how wonderful they are. I wish I could. And it makes me so sad to think that people would take something as precious as a relationship and "normalize" it, or make it common or to make it seem not as special as it truly is. Do not become comfortable with each other to the point that you feel like you do not need to whisper "I love you" to the other. That you cannot wear their favorite color just to make them smile. That you cannot wait to get home just to see them smile.
I cry as I write this post because it means so much to me. 
Sit by each other on the couch. Why wouldn't you? Hold each others hand. You are in love. Show it. Do NOT tell me that showing affection is only for newlyweds and during the honeymoon part of a marriage. 
Who are the cutest and best examples of love? Think about them. They are the older couples who still hold hands and smile at each other after whispering sweet nothings to each other. Don't give an excuse. Don't say, "we just don't have that anymore" Do it.
It is going to take work, but keep in mind how, if done the right way, love won't seem like work at all.

Wednesday, November 28, 2012

Wedding dance song?

This last song could possibly be our wedding dance song. SO. beautiful.

Tuesday, November 27, 2012

Surprise Picture!

Look at this beautiful picture of my sweetie Cody!

I met a girl on Facebook who happens to live in Brazil, in the same area that Cody is serving! After talking to her through FB, I found out that he served in her same stake! And then she happened to have a picture of him and sent it to me!!! BEST DAY EVERRRR!!! =D 
He looks so good! Happy and healthy! It makes me happy just looking at it! 

Also, I just finished putting together three packages for Cody tonight! 
One is for his Birthday! Dec 17th
One is for Christmas!
One is a just because I love you package!

In the last couple of letters and emails, Cody has mentioned how much he misses hugs! He wishes he could hug someone or have some sort of physical contact more than just a handshake. Well, that has really broken my heart :'(
So I decided that I would put a "Hug" inside the next package to him. 

I think it turned out cute! But I hope he understand what it is!

Well, I found out from the weekly email that Cody is not going to die! He said his fever went down and he is only left with a gunky nose. I am so thankful that he is ok! 
I also got a letter yestday! They come exactly when I need them! His letters are SO beautiful!

"You've just gotta know that I would go through just about anything to be that guy who gets to hold your hand forever.That thought makes me feel so peaceful and happy inside. I still feel with all of me that you are the one, Amy.  
If there is ever a day you don't feel special, or pretty, or worth it, or beautiful, I want you to remember me. And I want you to know that I would give my life to save yours. because you are so wonderful. You are so beautiful. You are so very special, and very loved by me."

Sunday, November 25, 2012

sick and pictures

I just found out that Cody is very sick =( I am very worried about him. He sent a short email saying he was sick and that his fever was going up and he wasn't sure if would have to go to the hospital. And then he finished the email. Needless to say, I was super worried. So I have to wait until tomorrow to see if everything is ok. I keep praying he is ok! Pray for him!
He got the bacon popcorn I sent him!

enjoying his letters!

The package I sent him! I hope this was after he had it for a while. It looks messy!

...he loves netella LOL

and here is a parrot! 

My poor boy! He is so sweaty! I can't even imagine how hot it is there!

His area. So beautiful!

He melts my heart!

I want to hug him! 

and he is the same Cody that I know =)

another picture of his area

I don't think his companion likes Cody's tie that I got him

boys are silly

and that would be a ninja turtle outside his window

Elder Norman and his companion!

"Chocolate rain" from such bad pollution. GROSS!

hehe! he got a package from his mommy! yay!

eating food, like a man!

Keeping up on his missionary haircut!

Looks yummy!


Look at their beautiful temple!

They got to go to the temple! He was so excited!

Beautiful flowers at the temple!

They didn't have lights at their apartment so they were working by candle light

Cody and his companion at the temple

Sometimes, when you are a man, you dress up like a ninja in your room.

Again...he loves nutella =)


Saturday, November 17, 2012

lyrics speak the words of my heart

sweetest letter

This is the happiest day of my life. (Well, so far. I think that the day I see Cody again will be the best day in my life. for sure.) You know that letter that I was so "patiently" waiting for for? Yes, it came today. 25 pages of the most beautiful words I have ever read in my entire life. I cried through the entire letter and left several tear stains on it. Everything in my life is good. I am not worried about anything! I have made righteous decisions and there is no room for doubt in my mind or heart. I am so in love with Cody that I do not even try to explain it. Because I wouldn't do it justice. I could never explain what we have well enough. 
I would like to share my testimony of how perfect God's timing is. 

Sunday, November 11, 2012

the swan princess

who is unhappy that tomorrow is a holiday and there won't be any mail and probably no email either? this girl =(
So the other day, i watched The Swan Princess and I was flooded with awesome childhood memories of watching that movie! Looove it! So when Odette and Derek started singing their "far longer than forever" song, I was like "OOOHHH! they are singing for Cody and me!" So I just had to share it!

and now i have to share another perfect song


ALSO! i ran into this song and was taken back to the night Cody and I said goodbye. I was leaving to college and we knew that we wouldn't see eachother again until after his mission. That was one of the saddest and sweetest nights of my life.   


And now I have to share another amazing song...


The first time I heard it, I was like "myeh" but now I can't stop listening to it over and over again! =)

and now I will share my new favorite picture that I made! 
How perfect are we?

Wednesday, November 7, 2012


So I still have not received my letter and the wait is killing me. So instead of focusing on that. Here are some quotes that I love! I am trying to stay positive. No one likes a grump right? 

Tuesday, November 6, 2012

where did october go?

This past month, October, went by way too fast! I can't believe it's already November! I just looked at the calendar and was like "OH MY GOSH! Cody is officially done with month 7!" We are now on month 8 people! WOW! Month eight? 
Month seven FEW BY! It probably went by so fast because I didn't want it to go by fast. 

Saturday, November 3, 2012

waiting on a letter

I should be getting a very anxiously anticipated letter this week. Well hopefully it comes this week. You never know with the mail from Brazil. Sometimes it takes up to a month. Sometimes only 12 days. Once I get my letter, my heart can feel at rest. 

Friday, November 2, 2012

Happy and Thankful

I would like to start this blog post with saying, I am so thankful! I am so thankful for this opportunity for me to grow! I want girls to look at me and say "Wow! She is so inspirational! And those two are what true love is all about!" I don't want to be viewed as that sad girl!
I want to shout out to the world just how Happy I am! I wouldn't want my life to be going any other way! I am all bubbly inside when I think of what a devoted and worthy man Cody is! I love that he is serving the Lord. Cody always shines the light onto my shadowed point of view.
 He always says
 "Amy, I owe my Heavenly Father so much! He is given my everything! And in return, all I have to do is serve him with all of my heart might mind and strength for two years. Sometimes I feel like it's not even enough"
 How wonderful our Heavenly Father is, who loves us SO much! SO much more than we will EVER be able to understand! I just try to multiply how much I love Cody by infinity and my head starts spinning. It is like trying to fit eternity into a moment.
While my sweetheart has been gone, i have learned so much that I wouldn't have otherwise. And I know that I will only continue to learn and grow! Heavenly Father knows exactly what he is doing!
Something that has been stuck on my mind lately is the quote
 "Pain is inevitable but Suffering is optional"
I love it so much! It reminds me to check myself! I can't just be afraid of the dark when night time come. I have to be ready with my candles and flashlight!
We are never left without any options to turn to. If you have no one in the world to talk to, talk to him who is not of this world.
Cody has been the best impact on my life and I am so greatful that I have been lucky enough to have our paths collide. I think Heavenly Father knew exactly what he was doing.
I have such a strong testimony of missionaries now! I have always looked up to them and found them very inspiring, but now my love for missionary work has filled every part of me! I love my Savior and I love the Book of Mormon and I LOVE this gospel!