My newest favorite picture ever! i love how he is smiling!

Here is the video I made for Cody for his valentines day package!

more than magical

My day today was........awkward.

SO! today, I went on a day. with a boy. who was not cody. i was worried.

The thing was, this boy met me at swing dance and asked me on a date.  I figured I would go even though I didn't like him and I would just have fun! so our date was tonight and we went on a group date with sam and her date and a bunch of others too.  Well, all i'm going to say is that it made me realize just how much i LOVE cody norman! with all my heart! and everytime i see or interact with another guy i just realize it even more.  I do think it is a good idea that I do talk and hang out with guys because if I didn't, then i wouldn't have gotten this reassurance.  that and i promised my mom i would.  If i want to spend forever with someone, i have to know it's the perfect choice. and so far, cody is my perfect match.  What we have is more than magical. 

<3

best kisses ever!

Valentines Day last year! 2011

getting over my chicken pox

i love him!

one of my favorite pictures ever! this one was taken without us knowing!

cody loves this one!

feeding the birds!

our 1 year anniversary! June 10, 2010

Cody's love face! this face makes my heart melt

first day of school cody's senior year.  he was in a skit!

one of the first times cuddling!

50's dance

our feet! 

also the 50's dance

cody's graduastion-i was their class escort. I got to read his name!

Our first dance! and our first kiss!

I also want to add our song! our version is the John Michael Montgomery one but he doesn't have a music video for it, so here is this one!

I am currently in washington, at home, in my old bedroom. Deciding to come home for the three day weekend was really a hard decision for me.  I wanted to see my family more than anything in the world, but Cody and i weren't sure if we could handle another goodbye.  Our first one was the hardest thing I have ever done in my life.  After praying about it, we decided it would be ok for us to see eachother and let me tell you that the car ride felt like waiting for christmas. A ten hour drive in the car is a loooong time! I got home around 3:30 in the morning and sneaked into my old room and woke up in the morning and surprised everyone.  Cody came early and spent the day with me! As soon as i saw him, it was like ABSOLUTELY no time had passed. I still can not believe how crazy normal and just perfect it was having him with me.  He came shopping with me and my sisters and mom and bought me a beautiful bracelet, we watched mega mind, he ate dinner with us, he kissed me. SIGH! This morning he came after church. His sister brought me an awesome package with dorm decorations! and then he stayed all day again. we hung out with the family, he ate dinner with me again, we just sat and talked, we played settlers of catan, and then i dropped him off at his house.  I just don't know how to feel.  I tried so hard not to cry and of course at the very end i did. I just have to say that this time was so much easier than last time even though my heart still feels hurt.  I guess it just helps to know that i have waited for almost two months now and when I saw him, it felt like zero time.  I just HAVE to hold on to that hope and it will help me.  I love you Cody Norman more than i can feel!

i don't know how to do this. he hasn't even left yet. i'm dying inside and it's only been a month and a half. he hasn't even left yet. he hasn't even left yet. he hasn't even left yet! every day i wake up and i think man! i love that boy! and all i do is cry because i miss him so much. i don't know how to handle it.i miss him so much and there is nothing i can do to make it better.

LOVE

Since it's valentines day, i want the world to know just how much i love this boy! and the best way i know how to do that is by pictures! so here are a few of my favorite!

before i cut my hair

easter sunday

cold

just snuggling

50's dance

xcountry together

holdin hands at school

night of our first dance and first kiss

first time we held hands

pictures

Just going to share some of my pictures!

My Valentines Day Gift

I am so overcome with emotion right now! I was taking a nap on this incredibly awful Valentines Day when I woke up to my Cody calling me on my phone. "Hey sweetie, go look outside your blinds" he said. I ever so groggily got off my bed and opened my curtains and this is what I found! The most beautiful flowers I have ever seen in my life!!! Of course I started to bawl instantly. The note attached to the flowers read: 

Dear Sweetpea, I love you so much, it hurts to be away from you. I'm just so thankful that there is someone in this world that I can love this much and that loves me right back. Never stop being beautiful and being your very best.

All I have to say is that Cody is the best boyfriend ever and I hardly deserve him. I don't know how i'm going to live two years without him.

snowboarding!

I had a fabulous weekend snowboarding for the first time everrr!!! I went with my roommates this weekend and I was scared to death! This is a girl who can't handle heights and rollercoasters! We had to get up at five and because we are crazy, we stayed up till three forty five watching Titanic! Well the car trip was like four or five hours long. I thought I would be able to sleep in the car but it was miserable! we were so squished. Anyways, after we got their and got our stuff on, we got our boards on and scooted ourselves over to the old man at the lift. He smiled at me and asked if it was my first time. Probably because I was falling down. So we made it on the lift! SCARED TO DEATH! I don't know how those things are legal! Getting on was definately easier than getting off.  All of us fell down =) Long story short- The first time down was the hardest thing I have ever done ever! I fell down about a million times and just when I was about to give up...i made it the rest of the way down! it was amazing! After that, I only fell down once, which was a face plant! I definately think that this weekend was a win and now I have had a new experience!

“I am satisfied that happiness in marriage is not so much a matter of romance as it is an anxious concern for the comfort and well-being of one’s companion. Any man who will make his wife’s comfort his first concern will stay in love with her throughout their lives and through the eternity yet to come”-Gordon B. Hinckley

  

Gordon B. Hinckley and his cute wife!

The last dance we went to
YSA Christmas Ball

sad

i have been pretty bummed lately and i'm not sure exactly why.  i'm thinking it is probably because i am missing cody so much =( everything seems to be in slow motion and not very worth while. so it was a good thing that me and my roommates went to the gym tonight.  we now go every tuesday and it is pretty intense.  i have been working myself SUPER hard! which is a good thing! hopefully i will have a super rad body when cody gets back! and i think it's a good way for me to take some of my frustration out on you know? in a healthy way. =)
Anyways, after working out today i (don't judge me) ordered a small hawaiin pizza from dominoes because i hadn't eaten dinner and i was super hungry and i didn't want to make dinner and i really wanted pizza and blah blah blah! anyways! my story! the delivery guy comes to my house and has me sign the paper and i take a *big box to my room and open it to find a large mushroom on pepperoni pizza.  my first thought was "I LOVE mushrooms!" and with a big smile i take a slice and eat it. Then I get up and go towards the door to go get a drink and pass my roommate and tell her a funny story about how the pizza guy gave me the wrong pizza. "should I have eaten it?" i asked her and at that EXACT moment the door knocked and my heart stopped beating! "OH NO HE WANTS THE PIZZA BACK!" i mouth at my roommate.  I wait WAY too long and finally open the door and look down at my feet. "i ate it" i told him as though i were asking for forgiveness.  he just handed me my little box and said "thats ok, my fault" SO NOW I HAVE TWO PIZZAS FOR THE PRICE OF ONE!!! YAY!

My new favorite quote! I almost started to cry


"True love is when two people put the Lord first"

Razzmatazz?!

I have finally experienced Jamba Juice!  Tonight, me and my roomie went and I think I got the Razzmatazz?? it was pretty yummy! =) well, afterwords we went food shopping. BLAH! I hate food shopping! No! I hate paying for food! I already only buy the things on sale and cheapest brand etc. but it's still too much money! It kinda hurts me! But I did pick up some things to put in Cody's package, which is a good thing! =)

I just had to go on a couple of photo shoots with him before I had to leave!