"I love you more than I know how to feel"

Sunday, May 20, 2012


I hate how I emotionally crash every night! No matter how great or average my day is, I crash at night.  I go from being busy or caught up in things to being alone.  Alone with my thoughts (which I am trying SO hard to be uplifting and optimistic) and feelings.  I go from kinda missing Cody, to feeling like my heart is being ripped out...over and over every night!
I am homesick again lately and it probably has a lot to do with the fact that I am hating college right now. Would I tell anyone that? no. I try not to tell anyone that but I am going through the worst semester ever and I am doing terribly in some classes.  I literally want to quit for now and come back when i'm ready.  It is a lot harder than I thought and I am struggling.  I am really just trying to get through these next two months.
Well...still missing Cody but I have almost gotten used to the pain.
Trying to be brave! He is worth it.

1 comment:

  1. Oh Amy, i wish i could reach out and give you the BIGGEST hug right now! There were many times i HATED school, just wanted to quit and never go back. It is HARD WORK and anyone who says it isn't it's really doing that much in school ;)

    Just stick with it hun, it will get better! When you can get into classes you LOVE, it will make all the difference. Also, just for the future, i think you should take some religion classes with Kory Kunz, he's awesome! He writes music and sings it in his classes, you would love him.

    But i'm sorry that there is not more i can do to help. If there is anything i CAN do to help, PLEASE let me know! I want to help you in anwy way that i can! I love you too much for you to suffer. It's still going to be hard with cody gone, but each day that goes by is another day till he'll be here! I mean, he's almost already been out 2 months! crazy to think. I love you hun!