I hate how I emotionally crash every night! No matter how great or average my day is, I crash at night. I go from being busy or caught up in things to being alone. Alone with my thoughts (which I am trying SO hard to be uplifting and optimistic) and feelings. I go from kinda missing Cody, to feeling like my heart is being ripped out...over and over every night!
I am homesick again lately and it probably has a lot to do with the fact that I am hating college right now. Would I tell anyone that? no. I try not to tell anyone that but I am going through the worst semester ever and I am doing terribly in some classes. I literally want to quit for now and come back when i'm ready. It is a lot harder than I thought and I am struggling. I am really just trying to get through these next two months.
Well...still missing Cody but I have almost gotten used to the pain.
Trying to be brave! He is worth it.